so sorry for your huge Loss
i have to tell you this because i feel
like your so saturated with grief that you'll
try to end your pain thinking to join her
in the afterlife.... it doesn't work like that
each incarnation... a life on earth
is for the purpose to learn vital lessons
supposedly to get closer and closer to GOD
or to achieve perfection, But when you take
your own life you take a step backwards in that
transition....(progression)
so don't make the same mistake.
Time in the afterlife is not really experienced
as there are no calendars, seasons, sunsets ,or clocks.
your next 40 years or so of Life will seem like
just a moment for Lori .... so it is written
you can cherish the memories and stay alone
and miserable or
someday when you've had sufficient
time to manage your pain of the loss...
you might once again stumble into
a second relationship that offers you some measure of
happiness... (hopefully you'll be so lucky)
the greatest thing is that a person always keeps analyzing
endlessly what they could have done to have kept it from happening
and that is basically non constructive... changes nothing.
She would have wanted you to take good care of yourself despite
her act of desperation based solely on emotion. Be logical.
...be thankful for the time you had.... be grateful for the love
you shared... but you still need to Love yourself enough
to take it one day at a time... and fill your life with JOY
where ever (when ever) you can possibly find it.
Nature helps in that regard because of the unfathomable beauty
it bestows upon us.... and when you see it...
think of it as Lori speaking to you in a soft spoken way thru nature to ease your pain.
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