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Guys, the military isn't for me. Honestly, I'm scared. I'm scared to point a weapon at a living creature and fire, knowing I could take it. Knowing that the people on the other side probably don't have those fears. I'm sure some do but a lot don't.
I'll leave that to the people who can. After I killed someone, I don't think I'd be able to live with myself. I'd probably off myself. I doubt they would take me with my ummm problems anyhow. I promised John I wouldn't go into them but you know what I speak of.
If I get drafted, God forbid, maybe I could do something else other than killing. I'd be willing to save lives but I just don't think I could bring myself to take a life. If they wanted me to work stateside, manufacturing weapons, I could probably do that. I wouldn't care for it because I know what they would be used for but it's better then me directly killing someone.
I know that makes me sound like a coward but I know, in the end, we all have to answer to a higher power and to ourselves. I just can't justify taking a life.
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