#^&#^&#^&#^&#^&#^&, dude, I think you had a really scary situation recently and you are having a "moment of clarity."
You took a step back and looked at things.
There's nothing wrong with having a passion in your life. Alot of people don't have that... how many people do you know that spend all their time in front of the tube or out at bars partying or whatever. We're lucky, we have an outlet, something that wipes the slate clean after a rough week. Fishing has to be one of the greatest escapes there is... but sometimes we put things too far up the priority list. When you love doing something that much, its hard to maintain that balance between your passion and your family, your career, etc. etc. If your life is like most, you're getting pulled 8 different directions 24/7. If you find that perfect balance, tell all of us, 'cause I doubt anyone knows where it is.
In a way, I'm lucky. My wife is a busy body and runs around like a nut all the time. I respectfully give her that time out of the house, as she gives me my fishing time, and it keeps me home with the kid. I love my time with my daughter and would like to think that I would choose to stay home even if my wife was a home-body... but who knows.
I wouldn't beat yourself up too much. A fisherman is a big part of who you are...along with being a husband and most importantly, a father... scale back some, spend some quality time with the family... you'll still have lots of time to fish.
As far as I have seen in my short time in this life, fishing and having a kid are the meaning of life... these are the things that bring me the most joy. It sure isn't fixing computers or putting a floor in my basement or driving an hour in traffic to work.
It looks like you gave us all a place to rant. Good thread...
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