realty ..life 
... less 
.. mostly physically , but now its gerring at times mental /I have everything ready & then just say fu ck it ..
       bought F/W gear thinking I could get back to the real peaceful fishing 
.. didn,t take real long the I couldn,t get to a lot of places , either physically or legally  
..&&&& the trash issue is just to much .
      I went out  alone Tuesday  .managed to find a few . then bluefish  & I had already been late because a lack of bait 
.  which I ran out of .
       when I was about done  I fell [again]       stayed there for a while .finally crawled up 
..saw that when I fell a snapped my rod rack  when I hit it .
       But I was all set to go the next day because of the activity...
. alarm went off .tried to rollover and get up 
.. body had tightened up 
.. nope  no go ..
        figure I have 1.5 years left  / its not much fun alone & not many left to go the way I go .
        I miss many of the guys I use to fish with /a few  RIP took care of it      & others just tired .
        I use to love to fish with Got Stripers .& he wouls ask me to be at the ramp   4;30 ish 
..  no way .he finally got sick of asking , got a yak, woman & golf  
.so the became history 
..others guys just disappeared . changed fish . quit fishing  . etc, etc, etc, 

