My world has come to an end.

[WESTPORTMAFIA]

Hang in there pal!
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[Raven]

plan some activities.... stay working on stuff
keep that mind focused on chores, errands,
small tasks, whatever gives your - mind a break.

clean
every square inch an opportunity to make it nice

[Duke41]

Dude. She is with you every day. Talk to her out loud and know she hears you. Make your life a partnership with her. Walk with her every day. We all suffer devastating losses. Its part of life unfortunately. God has a plan for you. Trust in Him.

[jimmy z]

I just saw this, and I am truly sorry.
One thing I know is that time is a great gift given to us to handle the pain of losing a loved one.
Cherish the memories my friend , but please don't live in the past. That's not good. You are given a new day every 24 hours , live in this day and have faith that all will get better. It does my friend. God be with you and may your Lori rest in peace
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[fish raptor]

I have not been on this site since my earlier posts. i reread most and wish to thank everyone for their kind words. I went to counseling for a week but it didn't seem to help. We suppose to follow up with specialists but lost my will to try. It has been several weeks. I am the planning type person and have to have everything in order.... that is what I have been doing for the last month. I do not wish to rehash all of my fears and sadness and depression. I am still at the point where I don't see a light at the end of the tunnel. My biggest fear is I know if the weather starts to turn warm and it's time to get the boar ready for the summer I will break down horrifically as I know I will not have her by my side. I am still fighting thought. You guys are really genuine with your kind words..... I never would have guessed a bunch of fisherman could be so compassionate. I thought I'd ad a pick of Lori landing a Blue trolling using a school bus I believe. Boy was she happy that day. We had 300 yards out of 60# braid on the Talicas and when he hit he leaped out of the water immediately. I wish I could go back and do that again.... I had so many big plans for this year at the Cape. I got to know lots of shoals and fishing spots, all in the GPS now, was going to head to Race Point for the first time and a host of others... I need to find a fishing partner otherwise my sadness and depression will get the best of me.

[afterhours]

take it one day at a time, you now have another angel watching over you. cherish your time here knowing someday you will be together again.

[fish raptor]

Originally Posted by afterhours

take it one day at a time, you now have another angel watching over you. cherish your time here knowing someday you will be together again.

I can HONESTLY say that if I DEFINITELY knew that I would see her again someday, somehow I would snap out of this severe depression and sadness and my life would be back to normal. It's just the horrifying thought that that i will never talk to or touch that one in a billion girl ever again.

[Nebe]

Brace yourself for a Cheesy saying, but here it goes. "When you are going through hell, don't take a seat.. Keep going".

You will come out the other side, just give it some time.
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[5/0]

My family has you in our thoughts and prayers from when you first posted,my deepest thoughts go out to you,but you must keep in mind that we are all here for you,along with your lost one.

She is with you every day and night, she would want you to be strong for her kids set the benchmark for them teach them how to be as tuff as nails.
Focus on them and see your girl through there eyes,this will be your salvation.

Be a rock make things happen yet once again, life is short and death is eternal.
You will be with her again but until then make her happy and be strong,she would want you to hit those new spots and land that unspeakable cow.

I wish you well bud,I will cosistantly pray for you and her daughters.

5/0
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[Nebe]

6 years ago my sons mom gave me the boot and I was devastated. I thought I would never find someone as cool and as good a match for me as her. Then one day out of the blue I met a girl that took my breath away. Only problem was she was from Colorado. I visited her out there a few times and vice versa and she ended up moving here. My point is never give up. You only live once and to find happiness you have to move on when the time is right.
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[MAKAI]

In August, God took back his angel from me. He has bigger plans for her I'm sure. She was connected to my soul over 42 years, never to be replaced. I do feel her presence around me and take great comfort in that.
The pain is real, but so is the healing. Be her strength now. Souls that special always find each other again.
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[justplugit]

Fish Raptor, you mentioned you still can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
It takes so long to finally see it, but it will come. That's the hard part, waiting.
From my own experiences it will break a little at a time. It's like climbing stairs,
rest at each step and if you slip back one it's ok, it will make you stronger as you climb.

You are doing the very best thing by getting professional help,
don't give up on it, keep going back no matter what. You are a STRONG person for seeking it.
There are times we have to live 1 minute at a time with that dread feeling, but you will get through it.
You have a lot of people who sincerely care about you, as evidenced by this web site.
Take strength from that and know at the end of your suffering you will be able to help others
through their trials because of your new found wisdom and empathy.
We are all in this life together.
God Bless you,as he will, and hold on no matter what.

[ProfessorM]

Originally Posted by justplugit

Fish Raptor, you mentioned you still can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
It takes so long to finally see it, but it will come. That's the hard part, waiting.
From my own experiences it will break a little at a time. It's like climbing stairs,
rest at each step and if you slip back one it's ok, it will make you stronger as you climb.

You are doing the very best thing by getting professional help,
don't give up on it, keep going back no matter what. You are a STRONG person for seeking it.
There are times we have to live 1 minute at a time with that dread feeling, but you will get through it.
You have a lot of people who sincerely care about you, as evidenced by this web site.
Take strength from that and know at the end of your suffering you will be able to help others
through their trials because of your new found wisdom and empathy.
We are all in this life together.
God Bless you,as he will, and hold on no matter what.

Hopefully you can be helped from Dave's wisdom. He is such an insightful person. Godspeed

[Raven]

You need to think things a bit differently
like ...the best chapter thus far has come to an END
not your Life.
The story goes on...there's more to be written!
Time heals all wounds. You mentioned needing a new fishing Partner.
Well you carry lori in your Heart with you when fishing.
There are Other People that depend on you to be there for them
as they NEED you to be strong and to celebrate her Life as
you Knew it to be.

[fish raptor]

Just another reason why she was so special. Lori and I always had a standing joke between the two of us. Anytime she ask me to do a chore or favor for her my reply was always "sure..... for a quarter"...

So for my birthday she bought me a nice quality Fishing creel. When I unwrapped it she said "open it".... I ????? I didn't know what she was talking about...open it ??

She flipped up the fish that is hinged to the top and it opened up a Piggy bank slot. She said now you have a spot for all those quarters. She also gave me 3 fishing books she bought at the Cape. She knew exactly what to get to make me happy. I told her that the Fishing Creel bank was the nicest gift I had every received in my life and I meant it.

On the Christmas before I opened up a box which had an 8 1/4" GRS Big Water trolling Pike lure. These are all hand made and pretty expensive. She new the two colors that I already had so she got me a different color. It's get better..... She knows that I have a thing about having "two" of everything. One to use and one to put safely away should I loose the first one......so she bought me two. Do you believe it. That is just one tiny example of why she was so special. The GRS will never see water as it has to much sentimental value and I would be terrified of loosing it, but the idea of catching that big cow could also have special meaning. tackle box bank gift from Lori to Bernie birthday2015.jpg

big Stiper lure gift from Lori to Bernie xmas 2014.jpg

[Raven]

the more examples you remember of Lori's generosity and special thoughtfulness
the warmer you'll feel . those were very nice gifts for sure.