I don't want to talk about it

ok, my dr says its better to talk about it
fish # 1
cuttyhunk.....last year ....new moon june......shadow and j figs heard me on the other side of the island...on a black habs needle....could not stop the fish...never had control
fish #2
last friday night...with an eel that resembled a full size boa constrictor.....I hooked into something LARGE.....JUMBO LARGE
fish made two INCREDIBLE runs.......ones that make you sit back and smile
fast forward.....fish 5 feet in front of me......
and she was toast at this point in time....not moviong at all...pretty much surrendered herself....
light goes on....hand in the water to lip her......one last headshake and sher throws the F@*&#$% eel out of her mouth and it hit me in the shoulder
Unhooked.......she was still.....looking at me
so what did I do.....bellyflop on her
didn't get a good grip on her.....swam away slow
surprised no one heard me scream......
I swear..the fish was talked to me when she was looking at me....lying still
"you think I got this big by being stupid"
close to 55"/high 40's low 50 lb my guess...huge head and shoulders...never saw the stomach