My world has come to an end.

[nightfighter]

Originally Posted by JohnR

Hey bud. I am sooo sorry to see this and so truly sorry for your loss. As painful as it has been to you, make it through one day at a time, to the next, and don't do anything that will bring the same pain to others. Please see or call someone when or if it gets too hard - I'll give you my number if you want to call someone.

Godspeed, in time the pain will continue to lessen

Originally Posted by numbskull

This sort of thing can destroy you as well. That is not what she would have wanted and letting it happen is a dishonor to her. See a professional psychologist and/or grief counselor who has the education and experience to help you through this. Do it for her sake as well as your own and the sake of those who love you.

Bernie, these are two well thought out posts. I have struggled in composing my post for you. Don't know the facts. Doesn't matter. Be fulfilled that the two of you shared love in that chapter of your lives. Each came to that phase from different roads. Now the road has taken a turn. Not of your doing. Do not take that turn for yourself. Stay amongst the living. Your grief may well be followed by anger. The new road is long, and painful. If you are drawn to that other road, call one of us. Not to be cruel, but I can assure you I will be your biggest nightmare if you think that is the road to follow. My best to you. PM me if you want to talk and I'll get you my number. Ross